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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

just some quizes i've taken. . . no biggy. . .

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 36%
Stability |||||||||||||| 53%
Orderliness |||||||||| 40%
Altruism |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
Mystical |||||| 30%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||||||||||| 50%
Narcissism |||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Work ethic |||||| 30%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 43%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43%
Need to dominate |||||||||| 36%
Romantic |||||| 30%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||| 56%
Wealth |||| 16%
Dependency |||||||||| 36%
Change averse |||||||||||||| 56%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 43%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||| 36%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||| 17%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 50%
Vanity |||||||||| 36%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Female cliche || 10%
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Your Freakin Hilarious Icon is
Your Love icon is
Your Dark icon is
Your Pretty icon is
Your Sexy icon is
Your Random icon is
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Your Soulmate in The Used.
Name / Username
This fun quiz by takemylifex - Taken 2466 Times.
New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!



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Your Name Please:
Your Freakin Hilarious Icon is
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Your Dark icon is
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Your Random icon is
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Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Name:
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:53
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Your Superhero Persona
by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero NameManic-Depressive Man
Super PowerIrresistable Sexuality
EnemyThe Landlord
Mode Of TransportationUnicycle
WeaponBaseball Bat
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What is a good quote for you?
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Say what??"I wear more bracelets than a Russian whore."
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How long do I last in bed?
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What do people really think about you?
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What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex
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Most Likely to Say"Oh just twist it, make a point, and stick it in."
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Kala B.
Birthday:April 20, 1989
Birthplace:Somewhere in Texas
Current Location:My house
Eye Color:Dark brown
Hair Color:Dark brown with brown tips
Height:i don't know, last time it was 175-180
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right handed
Your Heritage:African and whatever else this America dishes out for me
The Shoes You Wore Today:The sole of my feet
Your Weakness:Chocolate and cute boys and my baby girl, Cece
Your Fears:Being alone and rejection for what I am
Your Perfect Pizza:Cheesy, mushroomy, chickeny goodness on thick crust, New York style baby!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Not to be so lazy and to not be known for being chained to the computer |sigh|
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:whaaaaaaaaat?
Thoughts First Waking Up:What? |turns back over and falls asleep|
Your Best Physical Feature:People say tis my smile
Your Bedtime:6 in the morning during to summer and 11-12 during the school year
Your Most Missed Memory:Everything about my childhood
Pepsi or Coke:coke I guess
MacDonalds or Burger King:Micky D's
Single or Group Dates:BOTH!! Single has time to cuddle. Group you are 'forced' to do things that are deeded 'nasteh.'
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:|loud moan/groan| My loves! Don't make me choose!
Cappuccino or Coffee:hmmm. . . I don't know. Cappuccino makes me think of french people or riches stuck up white chicks with the few black friends that try so hard to fit in.
Do you Smoke:Nope-ers!
Do you Swear:hmm. . . very interesting. . .
Do you Sing:Yesh, but only to my Cece and my church choir
Do you Shower Daily:NO!!!! I shower nightly!
Have you Been in Love:I don't know. Does Jesus and God count?
Do you want to go to College:Yesh.
Do you want to get Married:May be. I think so soz I can make babies and not feel regret.
Do you belive in yourself:Not really. I don't think I can do anything good for anyone.
Do you get Motion Sickness:Nope-ers
Do you think you are Attractive:I don't think so; others say I am.
Are you a Health Freak:Nopo!
Do you get along with your Parents:My stepdad. Me and pops and maz use to get along. . . but time is a weird thing for people.
Do you like Thunderstorms:YESH!!! Bring it ON!
Do you play an Instrument:I use to! I play the comb and paper and the leaf and fingers. Good at what I did too.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Past month? Close, but nopo
In the past month have you Smoked:Nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Besides medicine? Nopo
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:I don't think so. Wait, nopo
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:nopo, which is not my fault |starts to whine|
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Nopo
In the past month have you been on Stage:Nopo
In the past month have you been Dumped:Nopo
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:heeheehee, nopo
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:Nopo
Ever been Drunk:Nopo
Ever been called a Tease:Yesh
Ever been Beaten up:Nopo
Ever Shoplifted:Yesh
How do you want to Die:In my sleep and feeling content with my life
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Yo mama! On your knees, snitches! Get down!
What country would you most like to Visit:Japan or China
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Green and brown, like this dude Shaun I used to play with. He was the cutest!
Favourite Hair Color:I don't have one
Short or Long Hair:doesn't matter
Height:hopefully taller than I am
Weight:doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style:whatever fits him best
Number of Drugs I have taken:not mentioning
Number of CDs I own:not many
Number of Piercings:two that are closed now
Number of Tattoos:None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Too many to remember properly

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Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.

That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!

The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.



You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.

Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.

You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?



You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.

Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.

As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.


Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)




You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.

You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.



You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.



You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.

Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.



In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.



At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.



With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.



As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.



On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.


You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.

(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)

While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...


The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.

You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.



Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho


Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.

You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.



Your flirting style: Friendly



Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe



Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish



What you bring to relationships: Loyalty


Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure



What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion


Your Fortune Is

He who thinks by the inch and talks by the yard deserves to be kicked by the foot.



You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.

Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.

You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.



You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.

Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.

You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.



At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.

Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.

A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.


How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.



You give and take equally in relationships.



You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.



You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.



You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.


Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.


Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.

You focus on living a quality life.

You're not easily impressed with novelty.

Yet, you easily impress others.


Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.

You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.

The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.

Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!


On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,123,950



You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.

Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.

You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.

You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.


You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.

Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..

Your convictions are strong and unwavering.

You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.


You Are Changing Leaves

Pretty, but soon dead.



Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp

What You Call Him: Pa



Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy


You Are 50% "Average American"

You are average because you don't make New Year's resolutions.



You are not average since you've known your best friend for less than ten years.


Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.

Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.



You would make an excellent:



Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor

Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer

Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer

Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor



The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.


You Are Balanced - Skeptic - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.

You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.

Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.

Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.



You are a total skeptic when it comes to luck.

You believe that people use luck as a crutch to avoid responsibility.

You control your own destiny. The universe has nothing to do with it.

You believe everything can be explained - and you tend to over analyze situations.



When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.

Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.

You don't care much about what others think.

But they better care what you think!


Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.

You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.


How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.


Your Observation Skills Get A B-

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)

And it takes something big to distract you!


Your Birth Month is April

You are trustworthy and highly ethical in all facets of life.

Helpful and steady, you are able to solve any problem.



Your soul reflects: Bliss, playfulness, and curiosity



Your gemstone: Diamond



Your flower: Sweet Pea



Your colors: Yellow and red


You Passed the US Citizenship Test

Congratulations - you got 9 out of 10 correct!


You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...

But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.

You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.

You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!


What Your Underwear Says About You

When you're bad, you're very bad. And when you're good, you're still trouble!



You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.


You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.


Wednesday, November 23, 2005

1.Your real name: Alak (yeah, not really)
2. Friends call you: Kakay, Alak . . . something else
3. What your boyfriend calls you: Don't have one of those things
4. What's a name you once wished you'd rather have?: I think I'll just stay with me name for now. . .
5. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: I don't really think there are ugly names; everytime you think a name is ugly, check out what it means. . .you just may be surprised. . . .
6. What would you name these if you had them as pets?:
a. turtle: Speedy
b. goose: Tooky
c. pirate: Lucky
d. a hot boy: . . .Raphael no RUPHEO!
7. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: Puppet's Paradise in Nightmares
8. What would you name your kids?: Raphael, Daemon Sin'Claire, Lui and Luit, and Aubrey Crystal
9. What would you name a ship you built?: Pop-up Puppets
10. If you wrote a book, what would it be called?: hmm. . . I don't know. . . The Fantastic Adventures of Rainbow Man and His Sidekick, Pot-O'-Gold!

Have you ever...
11. Thrown up in public?: Nopey
12. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: Yesh
13. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about?: Nopey
14. Tripped while checking someone out?: Nopey
15. Had to pay for something you broke?: Nopey
16. Nearly drowned?: . . . I think so. . .yesh?
17. Passed out?: Nopey
18. Had a crush on somebody?: Yesh
19. Been stuck in the rain?: I wish
20. Been attacked by an animal?: . . . .nopey?
21. Caught people having sex?: Nopey
22. Fallen asleep while driving?: They don't trust me to even drive, let alone while I'm sleepy
23. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: . . . nopey?
24. Actually slipped on a banana peel?: Nopey
25. Made a wish that came true?: Nopey

Complete The Sentence
26. I once had a dream... that I fell onto or saw myself fall onto some sharp jagged rocks and till this day that image is still there
27. I'm only racist towards... you foo! hahahaa!
28. I don't even know why I'm... even trying to make her understand me. . .
29. I'd give anything to have sex with... my husband
30. Nothing sucks more than having to... cleaning up the house while your bro does nothing
31. If I had six bucks i'd buy... me some freakin' candy!!
32. It's hot. I should take off my... nomething! Turn on that ceiling fan guh!
33. It's always more fun if you... have crazy people by your side the whole way
34. You can't eat steak without... it being in front of me and you backing away. . . .NOW!!!
35. You better shut up before I... rip the skin off your arms and strangle you with it
36. I really like you and everything but... you're just too cute for me to have

What would you do if...
40. A dirty old guy at the airport slaps your ass?: Turn around slowly, pull out a thick Bible from nowhere and beat him with it saying 'The Bible says, It's better for a man to even touch a woman!'
41. Somebody was about to steal your car?: Take out that Bible again and say, 'One of the ten commandments says thou shalt not steal!'
42. You wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over you and your bed?: Jump out of bed and around for a bit, run to the bathroom and jump in hot shower water and somehow rig my water hoes to the faucet and douse my room in hot water, starting with the bed. . .
43 You farted while giving a persuasive speech in class?: Say 'Excuse me.' and get on with the speech. Of course I'd be embarressed, but everybody farts and I'm no exeption
44. The person you just kissed tells you they have oral herpes?: Do him so much bodily harm that the Devil himself would wince at. . .
45. You have three wishes?: To make Puppet Pui real, to have oodoles of cash and to be the best at what I'm gifted to do
46. The government allowed you to choose one thing to be made illegal and one thing to be legalized?: Mini skirts; no unusual punishment. . .wait, that's not a law . . .
47. Britney Spears was at your front door asking for jumper cables?: Give her some; the faster she's off my property the better
48. You had a time machine?: Meet Jesus face to face
49. FOX gave you a half hour show to do whatever you wanted?: I'd prolly show a lot of fluffy things. . .I don't know

Would you rather....
50. Would you rather find the cure for cancer or the cure for aids?: I don't know, cancer?
51. Would you rather have the power to fly, or the power to teleport?: Fly
52. Would you rather have the power to see the future, or the power to record your dreams?: Record dreams
53. Would you rather be really skinny, or really fat?: Really skinny; I can eat my way to becoming healthy but tis soo hard to loose that weight if you're fat
54. Would you rather be lost in a forest, or stuck in a box?: Depends. . .what kind of box is it?
55. Would you rather be in a drama movie, or a comedy?: Comedy baby!!
56. Would you rather be in a hip hop video or a rock video?: Rock; I ain't shakin' my black butt for the whole world to see. . . nothing doin'
57. Would you rather have your birthday on Christmas Day, or on February 29th?: Feby 29
58. Would you rather live in the sewer, or in Afghanistan?: Afghanistan
59. Would you rather be in a mental institution or in a penitentiary?: Mental institution
60. Would you rather snow board or hang glide?: I'd rather do both, but I'll do the dangerous one first. . .
61. Would you rather be a ninja or a pirate?: BOTH!! Pironja (though it sounds like Poweranger to me)

Miscellaneous
62. List 3 words that are clues to identifying a person you are currently interested in?: I don't. . .have an interest in anybody at the moment. . .
63. Who is the last person you kicked?: Jared aka Mr. Pretty Eyes in the art room
64. If you had to be a chess piece, which piece would you be?: Either the Queen or the Pawn
65. Name three people you know whose names begin with the first letter of your last name: I don't know. . .

What Is Your opinion?
66. "Girls are nothing but drama.": That statement does hold a little truth in it, though not all of it is true
65. "Only idiots watch The Simpsons.": Then hand me a dunce hat and call me Dopey!
66. "Kentucky is way better than Cali": I've never been to either one so I can't really say
67. "There's nothing wrong with stealing.": Then there's nothing wrong with going to Hell for it either
68. "Alcohol is the answer to ALL your problems.": Sure, you keep believing that and die in the knowledge that it's not true
69. "You don't need to go to college to be a brain surgeon.": Aww. . .but what about my ideas? Can't we settle this over a little Maldula Ablongota? (i know i didn't spell it right so don't correct me)
70. "Music is stupid.": Then shut your heart off! Your heart beats in a steady rhythm, the same rhythm most music is palyed by
71. "Your car sucks.": Really? And...where is my car? I didn't even know I had one. . .
72. "Cancer is pure evil.": I guess. . .
73. "The OC is better than One Tree Hill." : I don't care a flip of a hot dog
74. "George Bush should be fired.": You voted for him; don't blame him for the actions you empowered him to make
75. "This survey is gay.": As are you

Currently Listening
Encore (Deluxe Edition)
By Eminem
Puke
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Monday, November 21, 2005

this craving's coming back and I don't want to feed it
I don't need it!!!

















but it's here and waiting. . .underneath the surface, it's brewing. . .





























can you release it?


Saturday, November 19, 2005

and life fades likes a lover's dead dreams.
it doesn't help that her love is dead as well. . .
mourning in heart triggers something akin to lustful death.
. . .a beautiful destruction. . .
dreams weren't supposed to have this much pain,
and nightmares weren't supposed to be this comforting.
but she took pity in those who pitied her
and she walked on rotted roads of silken sins
hoping to find out what she was looking for
. . .what a suicide of the mentals. . .
and i begin to feel that scarlet letter
sewn deeply by hidden sins into my soul. . .
i lose it now. . .
. . .and we all fall down. . . .
Currently Watching
Along Came a Spider
By Morgan Freeman, Monica Potter, Michael Wincott
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

and just when I thought everything was getting better. . .that too fades away.

Love moves on to another shore, and I'm left holding the remains of what could've beens in our fallen. I draw closer to a release in the ashes of our remains. And I think of nothing else but of what a love that should have been avoided.

But what could I do?



















. . . .you were just to adictive.



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